As the CSA (child sexual abuse) expert, therapist, and survivor Abby noted on her TikTok (which you should follow and learn from), something Freud got very correct is that in his “original paper on hysteria [he] stated that the majority of symptoms that people experienced who were hysterical were experiencing them because they were survivors of childhood sexual issues [abuses] and betrayal trauma…We know the statistics are approximately one in four people will experience some form of childhood sexual [abuses]. One in four people. Do you know what that is? That is an indoctrination…you are conditioned, conditioned to the system of oppression that is patriarchal, white supremacy, etc. this isn’t a conspiracy, this is reality. When you condition people to an environment that says the way you survive is to capitulate, to fawn, to stay disassociated. How are they [survivors of sexual abuse] going to know that they don’t have to?…That’s why people come out of disassociation and remember their experience of childhood sexual issues [abuses] when they have some power. What does power look like? Well that depends on who you are. That depends on your privilege, on your environment, on your resources, on who you know…[Speaking out] is something that [most] people do not do, because it is used against [us] in a variety of different spaces…[this is because] the systems that we live in our built on the exact same thing.”

As a tool/pawn and beneficiary of white supremacist capitalist patriarchy (we are Americans living in America after all), do you have any idea how much harm your mother Maimuna Salma has caused her victims?

For so long I felt shame, but I have come to accept and understand that Maimuna Salma’s actions were outside of my, our, control. My response today as an adult is within my control. I choose to continue to speak up about this frightening and horrific topic as best as I can, I choose to continue to advocate for the safety, sovereignty, and autonomy of children as best as I can. As adults, we are responsible for and to all children and younger generations and must act accordingly for them and for our own higher selves — our souls.

I have let days go by procrastinating on this — silent hysteria — experiencing chronic stress and breakdown wrecking my body because I had become so used to holding all these words inside of me. While I want you to pore over each of my words so that you know how I feel and you carry this burden too (as you should, as the daughters of the pedophile and child molester), I keep procrastinating and anxiously avoiding because I also feel some dread and fear for you. I feel bad and I hate that, why should I feel sorry for you especially after what your mother has done to my life? Oh God, but I must care about all children right? Because I cannot selectively care about some children, as I said so myself, because that would not be caring about children at all. On one hand I feel fearful for you and for your mental state, on the other hand I am sure you will be fine because you need to hear the truth and understand. Although I curse your bloodline till complete amends are made, I feel sorry for you and wish you well. I just need to be free of this dark energy so I can know what it is like to live. I want all fear eradicated by openly expressing these truths as my spirit is begging me to do for the sovereignty of my soul and for my broken inner child. To that aim, I dedicate myself to truth, knowledge, learning, and justice and I hope you do the same.

My story is now your story too. How will you tell it?

As these words have poured out in uneven and painful streams, and I continue to push my way out of flight and freeze responses, my body is breathing with more ease. I began to wonder — is this what it feels like to be a regular human with a regulated nervous system not stuck in the trauma of recurring nightmares? For so long I had been fragmented. My nervous system and I have finally begun to leave survival mode. It has been too long, all the years of my formative young adulthood, in freeze and then fluctuating between fight and flight.

When words are left to rot in the body, as was the case for me for so many years, they begin to ooze till they force themselves out — I had to write these letters to you. I feel that I am purging, I am feeling lighter, I feel like I am beginning to be able to move and breathe unperturbed. I feel less implosion and inflammation. It’s like I can begin to dream and create without intrusive nightmarish flashbacks. By finally expressing these dark, frightening truths, I am becoming unclogged by the dark energy of the pedophile and child molester Maimuna Salma’s sexual abuses.

I know that this is just the beginning of my healing. You and me both must continue to advocate for the protection, autonomy, and sovereignty of children. If my speaking out and finally expressing these truths helps even just one other child or abuse survivor, then the gut wrenching experience of breaking myself open to let these traumatizing truths out will be worth it.

I want you to think about what you would say to those children, to those little girls that the Maimuna Salma manipulated and sexually abused for years. As the daughters of the pedophile and child molester, what would you want the victims to know, feel and understand? As the daughters of the pedophile and sex abuser, how will you take accountability and responsibility so that you are acting and living in the highest of integrity? What will you do with this bloodline legacy of predatory pedophilia and child sex abuse that your mother Maimuna Salma has passed to you?

When I was 20 years old and trying to speak out and get justice, someone who I thought cared about my well-being the most but who was trying to manipulate me into keeping silent said that I should think about the pedophile-sex-abuser’s kids. So I did, and at the time I became even more terrified that something horrible could be happening against more innocent little girls and that somehow I was responsible. I realized later that a female pedophile-sex-abuser of your mother’s caliber acting in her best self-interest would likely not commit such crimes against her own children…but again, I could absolutely be wrong because many female sex offenders like your mother have done much worse to their own children to satisfy their sexual gratifications.

That being said, I am not responsible for you, that is your job and your parents’ job. I can only be responsible to you by being myself and communicating to you what needs to be expressed.

I talked about female sex offenders abusing girls in a previous letter. One thing I hope is that if you identify as LGBTQ+ or an ally, then you can be open and out 100% and that you receive no hypocritical hate from the homo-pedophile-sex-abuser Maimuna Salma or your father.

I hope you are better humans than your mother and care for all children. If it was your daughters and sisters being sexually abused in this way, how would you react and what would you do to the child molester?

We know that no one is free when others are oppressed, so that means while your mother is able to exploit and oppress little girls with no consequences, you are not free either.

See and understand that Maimuna Salma has much in commons with these monsters (re-posted below from here):

I said it once, and I will say it again and again.
I curse your child molester of a mother, I curse her till the end.
We will see if she makes things right, I highly doubt it, since she is top-tier predatory blight.
But she has you, young daughters, so I hope she sets a good example.
However, in the end, it is you who must hold her accountable.
I wish you good luck, please try your best.
And if you do not hold her accountable, the karma will pass to your own kids.
The decision is yours, so make it right, or else as I have said,
I curse you too for upholding such evil blight.

Till next time.